I’m feeling kind of frisky today. Intolerant of the world’s bullshit. I feel like ruffling some feathers…

I was on my way to “work” today – I use quotes because my “work” is a coffee shop – and noticed that at several points in my journey that I wanted to react irrationally to a slew of different scenarios.

Take guy 1. His 1980’s Toyota pick-up breaks down in the middle of the road, no biggie really. That’s not what got me. So, as I sat at the rail road tracks, waiting for traffic to figure out what to do (it’s simple people, go around him, or help him) I watched him sit there “helplessly” waving traffic by, without his hazard lights on.

I know this is a rediculous thing to get pissed off about, and I was able to maintain my calm. However, WHY on earth would you just sit there like a lump on a log? After about the 300th car drove past, why not push your tin can to the gas station less than 20 feet away?

Keep in mind that we’re talking about a decent size dude, not a petit woman. Besides, had it been a woman, she would have had 100 people helping her anyway. We’re also talking about a truck that weighs only slightly more than a go-kart. Trust me, I used to own one (and pushed it quite often).

So, it got me thinking…

When talking about life, are you the asshole that sits in the middle of the street waiting for someone to do the dirty work for you? Or are you the guy that knuckles down and gets shit done?

Sadly, I’ve realized that I’m at the half way point between the 2. Sometimes I just don’t feel like doing anything about my situation. I just feel like sitting there and having myself a little pity party. My entire personality seems to eb and flow for some reason. Other times, I’m gung-ho about whatever. And most often, I’m gung-ho about something… it just depends on the day to determine what exactly that is.

I find myself wanting to be left alone sometimes. Other times I want to be out in a crowd, meeting as many new people as I can. Then there are times where I’m gloomy, and others when I’m excited to be alive. I wonder sometimes if I’m normal, do others have these types of waves?

Last night, however, I read a little chapter in a book that I’ve been quite intrigued by lately. It’s called The 48 Laws of Power. Chapter 10 (if memory serves) is all about infection of attitude. The book gives some historical examples of infection and then explains it in lay-person’s terms.

A quote that seemed to speak very loudly to me was this:

If, for example, you are miserly by nature, you will never go beyond a certain limit; only the generous souls attain greatness. Associate with the generous, then, and they will infect you, opening up everything that is tight and restricted within you. If you are gloomy, gravitate to the cheerful. If you are prone to isolation, force yourself to befriend the gregarious. Never associate with those that share your defects – they will reinforce everything that holds you back. Only create associations with positive affinities. Make this a rule of life and you will benefit more than from all the therapy in the world.

And so it was said… I need to find some friends that counter what I already do naturally, and/or know when to call on the friends that I already have that do counter the undesirable traits that I have in myself.

Mostly, this blog was just an observation. A exercise in introspective thinking, if you will. Learn life lessons from what you see around you… even if it is a dumbass making you late for work (yes, I realize I’m not on a time clock, doesn’t mean I don’t have things to do ).