I’ve got a problem. My problem is my business, and life in general. I have no idea what I want anymore.
2009 proved to be a shitty year in quite a few aspects of my life, failed business, passing of family, financial setbacks a plenty… it’s been rough.
I don’t really let stuff like that get me down though, and I’m determined to make 2010 my year of change.
So, throughout the month of January, I’ve accomplished almost nothing “productive” as I would have previously defined it. Instead I’ve been going through and auditing my life and business and reflecting on just exactly what it is that I want…. and I’m still stumped.
I’ve managed to delete a lot of things that I know that I DON’T want… so I guess that’s a start.
To be honest, though, I’m having trouble making cognitive decisions about what I really DO want… Where I want my life to head… What I want my business to become… What I want my life to be.
It’s tough stuff…
So, I pose this question to anyone reading this post: What was it that made you choose your path? How did you know where you wanted to head?
I have a feeling that it’s going to just boil down to me sacking up and doing random things until I find something I’m passionate about…
Good honest post. 2009 was similar for me in many ways which had carried on from 2008.
Risk was my problem I gave up a steady job as Managing Director of a business in 2005 as I wanted a new challenge.
2005 to early 2008 were good but then in 2 years I chucked away so much net worth through poor discipline and too much risk. (not greed – but stupidity).
Now in 2010 I am rebuilding everything again but keeping positive.
I am passionate about a few things but realise that money is only a means to an ends. I could quite easily go and live on a farm or work on an Island. For me life is about living. Its about being on the top of the rollercoaster then finding yourself hurled out after a steep descent.
The secret is to keep getting back on it as once you stop then life has beaten you.
Keep being positive!
it’s safe to say 2009 sucked for most everyone. however, the end of the year i got out of my environment and headed over to thailand for a 2 month walkabout… it was there on a beach under a full-moon that i re-connected with my “purpose” which i’d forgotten over the past 5 years. it then took me some time to understand how to make it happen but it eventually came to me. and i’m making it happen right now and am psyched about it.
it took me being away from all familiar structures, all external forces pushing me to be this or that or one thing or another, all demands and expectations being made of me, where i could take off my mask and let my guard down and finally be able to hear my internal self.
do you need to go halfway around the world for this? no. but a prolonged absence from “everything” without any contact helps. what it really comes down to is this…
release your attachments to any and all outcomes… only then can you see clearly and honestly
Nice post James. Ahhh. We are all breathing the same air. I struggle with this every day. Almost. The days I don’t struggle are the days I just put one foot in front of the other. Last summer I started my twitter acct and named myself idance_iwrite. Because that is what I do. So when I started the blog I just started to share myself and my ….can I call it expertise? I guess I can. It’s mine. Right? Anyway…. I’m crazy lucky to not have to worry about a paycheck…But I really really want one again. A good one. Instead of trying to do what anyone else is doing…I’m just going to keep on sharing what I love…and visualize doors opening. I think 2010 is going to rock hard.